Day the twenty-sixth: How has your relationship with this deity changed over time?
In the very early days of beginning to honour him, which would be roughly 10 or more years ago, I remember being a little scared and quite timid. I was so worried that what I was doing with honouring him was wrong and that he’d be upset if I didn’t do something a certain way.
I also wasn’t completely “open” and couldn’t communicate with him like I do now, which made it even more terrifying.
Also because of who he was, and certainly who he is to me, I was in such awe of him. It’s like seeing a celebrity and being scared of going to say hello or anything.
Now I am still in awe, but on a different level. I’ve taken those steps and said ‘hello’. We’ve developed a relationship that feels a mixture of Teacher/Mentor-Student and Popstar-Fangirl because I still am a bit of a fangirl! Then you add the respect I have for him, and me sort-of seeing him as an Elder…it’s hard to explain.
Definitely not scared! I’m still intimated at times, depending on his mood. But I have so much respect and admiration for him.