I wasn’t expecting to be this run down come the Solstice. I didn’t expect that I’d lose my voice, get a chill, or being unable to go outside and celebrate in the ritual I had planned.
But maybe that was the plan, I just didn’t know it.
Today I went to work with a tiara of oak leaves and acorns. The final day of the Oak King’s reign. I can feel the shift happening, and the Holly King taking control.
So much has happened this week, I’m really looking forward to the new year. For the first time ever I feel like I have a plan, a plan of action. I am going to get my thyroid under control. I am going to lose weight. I am going to get healthier, and eat better.
I am finally going to take proper care of my body.
It’s hard not knowing what to do. It’s been a long and tiring journey, just to get to this point. Doctors, medications, blood tests, naturopaths. Mental breakdowns, crying, tantrums, bah humbug…you name it. This hasn’t just been this year, I’ve been building on getting to this stage for a good eight years.
I have gotten my depression under control. My depression is caused by a hormonal and chemical imbalance. I will get my thyroids under control (those evil, evil bastards!) and when that is under control, I’ll be able to lose the bulk of fat that just won’t budge. I have toned my legs. I have toned my arms. I need to be rid of the belly. Until I get those evil thyroids under control, trying to lose weight will be like trying to push a boulder up a hill.
Even if it’s a pretty boulder.
I have a plan of action for healthier eating, now that I know what I CAN’T have because of my condition, and lack of gallbladder. I am insulin resistant, so I now understand WHY I can’t eat certain foods, WHY I’m simply not allowed to eat certain foods, and WHY I’m going to start a low GI diet full of good fats and protein in the new year.
I now know WHY my knee acts up the way it does, and I’ve been given exercises to help it. Simple exercises I can do sitting down, as I type this, to help strengthen certain muscles to counter act against the naughty ones.
It’s all coming together. I am the happiest I’ve ever been. I have a plan of action ahead of me. I am following my intuition more and more, and I am growing into the woman I’ve always been destined to become.
And it’s a wonderful feeling!
Maybe I’m not meant to go outside. Maybe I’m meant to go to bed and rest, and prepare myself for the shift.
So I welcome this new era, this beautiful cosmic energy shift, with open arms! I am ready, I am in tune, and I’m all set to go