I bought a new tarot deck last week when in Melbourne.

I know the rules – the deck is meant to be given to you. It was given to me – the girl behind the counter put it in a paper bag and gave it to me! I’ve been itching for a quiet moment to I can truly sit and connect with them, and bind them to me.

I’ve since read mixed reviews of the cards, titled “The Psychic Oracle Tarot” by medium John Holland. I’m hoping these reviews don’t mess with my subconscious about using them. I have struggled over the years to find a tarot that I feel comfortable with. I first started using the Mythic deck and got nothing, and then the Atlantian tarot, and that I felt quite good with. It’s only in later times that I can’t seem to connect with them.

I did go through a stage which lasted a few years where I could feel nothing with cards of any kind. I believe this has to do with me pushing aside my spirituality so I could concentrate on other things, such as a tertiary education course.

But lately I’ve been itching to get back into the habit. And I love it. I’ve been reading for ladies on a wedding forum that I belong to, and for the most part I’ve had wonderful feedback. This has really helped with my confidence and I feel ready to embark on a new challenge, using tarot-tarot rather than oracle-tarot.

I’ve also got to learn how to read for myself properly. The messages that I get for the ladies I read for, I cannot get for me for the most part. I question myself to much, and then fluff it off thinking “I must not be doing it right.” In this case, I really want to go visit a reader/medium that I saw a few years ago and get a reading done for me.

But for now, I’m happy learning. My partner has suggested that, since I’ve now done close to 30 readings for the ladies on the forum, I start charging. Maybe next month I’ll look into setting up a PayPal account. But for now, I’m happy to learn and get my experience up.